August 30, 2020 Twenty-second Sunday in Ordinary Time (Lectionary: 124)
By Caitlyn McQuaide
In this world, I often feel I have two choices: to live for this earth, or to live for His kingdom. This is a daily struggle for me as it often seems much more difficult to live for His kingdom. By demonstrating my love for the Lord, I typically face judgment from my peers. I’m frequently tempted by sin. It’s too easy to judge others and gossip about people who have been unkind to me, but I know these things are wrong. I need to choose daily to demonstrate my love for the Lord by loving others, no matter the person. At the end of the day, when I want to run away from Him and be of this earth, I must remind myself that He is greater than anything this earth could provide and that His unconditional love is unlike any other.
My soul thirsts for Him.
When I inevitably go through a phase of pain and potential growth, I typically find myself sitting in the darkness but God always shows me signs that He is near. Just recently, I was in this phase and as I was scrolling through LinkedIn, of all the sites, I saw a post that fit exactly what I was experiencing and it pushed me forward. I have come to find that God always brings me hope, and maybe I don’t always realize it but I need Him. As the psalmist cries in today’s reading, “My soul is thirsting for you, O Lord my God.”
It feels like it should be easy to live for His kingdom but with the temptations of this earth, it is always much more difficult. I just keep reminding myself that living for Him will be much more rewarding. Yet, everyday I must make the conscious choice to live for Him. His love for us cannot compare to any other love. As a human, I make mistakes but God still loves me despite my countless sins, and therefore,
I must choose to seek Him every day.
At the end of the day, I must take up my cross and follow Him. Jesus died for me and the least I can do is live for Him. I must strive everyday to think like God does, and not as human beings do. Each day I will love my neighbors as myself, by spreading kindness and not judging another based only on what my eyes see.
I will spend time with God, by reading my Bible and/or through prayer and conversation. Surely, this will continue to be a challenge but if His will is truly “good and pleasing and perfect”, then I would be a fool to continue conforming myself to the things of this earth.
ABOUT THE AUTHOR
Caitlyn McQuaide is a recent John Carroll graduate who finds great joy in spending time with her family, reading a good book, buying herself fresh flowers, and appreciating the beauty of God's green earth. Born and raised in Pennsylvania, she is constantly striving to dig deeper in her faith. She is passionate about mental health, the power of vulnerability, writing, and making others smile. Find out more about her here.